It's too painful that I couldn't even explain it. Most of the time I question myself, Do I deserve this?
You see, I have a lot of locked emotions inside me and as much as possible I try to keep it that way. Why? Because I do not want to burden anybody. I don't want to explain, I don't need an advise and most especially, I don't want to be judged.
My mind has been so restless, I couldn't sleep or eat well. I have so many things going inside my head. How I wish I was just being overly dramatic about it. But I am not.
I am so afraid that I might lose all what's left and just give up. I am afraid of the mere thought of considering it because I know that when I decide, there's no turning back.
I want the pain to go away, I want the bad memories to go away. I just want all of these to go away.
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