You are not a tree.

Tomorrow is my first day in my new work. 

After seven months of blog hibernation, here I am trying to sort everything out through writing. So let me try to give you a brief summary of how my life went these past few months. 

After my one-year and eight months relationship with Stream, I decided to leave and find a company who can offer me a constant day-shift because as you know I'm a new mom and I want to regularly sleep with my baby at night. Luckily, I was able to transfer and the company's offer was able to meet my needs except for I had to work six-days a week. 

At that time, I felt like I did not have much of a choice so I said, go.  It was a traditional company and compared to the culture and environment that I have been  with for the past seven years, it was totally different. It was different in a sense that people I work with had different perspectives, they had different goals. My boss was very old school and his management style did not welcome diversity which really gave me a hard time to adjust. But then I said, what the heck, why not give it a shot? Whatever it is that I'll experience would be part of my character building anyway. 

So I did, I tried and I was happy because I was able to adjust in a short period of time but as much as I tried to fit in, I couldn't. I did not like their culture. And I believe that having a feeling like that meant a lot. I started questioning myself, how can i be an effective HR practitioner if I didn't like what I was doing? Of course, there are other factors that contributed to my decision to leave, factors which contradicted my values and principles that's why I did not think twice. 

Which now brings me to the whole point of this write-up. All of us would tend to rant about our day to day activities at work. We don't like our our environment, tasks, schedule and the most popular, our bosses. But with what I have experienced, I learned that we can always do something about our current situation. If we don't like where we are then we always have the right to change it. Well, it's not really just simply quitting your job, right? But it's also about changing our perspective. We should always try to consider to view the other side of the spectrum. We can't just rant about it everyday and not do something about it. 

I would have to say that my seven-month experience in a traditional set up helped me also. I did learn a lot as well. Some people may raise their eyebrows and say that they knew that it wouldn't really work out for me but then I will always remember what our former HR-VP told me before I left Stream, "It's going to be difficult and you will really have a hard time to adjust. At one point you will give up but it doesn't matter. You're already there, you already have the title. You can always start over." and he is right, in our lives, it's always never too late to start over, you just always have to have faith in yourself and for me that's all that matters. 

** Thank you, Sir Jovy because you still continue to inspire me, thank you because you never judged me. I will always look up to you.