Janna's second month.

I can't believe how time flies, we celebrated Janna's second month yesterday. She's growing up so fast and every day she never fails to surprise me. I am one lucky mom. :) 

(I had to use my creativity for Janna's cake. Haha TADA! :D)

xx

How I delivered my miracle and the things I learned.

If you have read my previous posts, you would know that it took some time before I finally gave birth to Janna, we waited several weeks before we decided that it was time for plan B. I was really pushing for a normal/natural delivery but time did not permit me to do so. I was already on my 40th week but my cervix has not dilated and I was not progressing at all. I even took supplements and walked everyday to help bring in the contractions but all were ineffective. 

So on my last check up, my OB advised me that since I'm already on my 40th week and still have not progressed, I can already undergo an induced labor procedure, though there was no guarantee that my cervix will open and if that happened, I would need to undergo a c-section. It seemed like I was running out of time so right then and there, Miguel and I agreed for me to skip the whole labor drama and just be operated via a cesarean section.  

And that was it, that night, the 27th of August, my OB called in the hospital and gave instructions that I will be admitted by 7PM and will be operated by 9AM the next day. Oh-EM-GEE! Can you just imagine how scared I was? Haha! I have never had any major operation in my entire life, Not to mention all the articles that I've read about the whole procedure! Hay! It also felt like I was cheating the whole experience of becoming a mother. 

To ease my tension, before I was admitted to the hospital, Miguel and I dropped by megamall to shop for some of Janna's things. We also attended mass to of course pray for my safe delivery. By 8:30, we arrived at the hospital and went straight to the labor room. 

LABOR ROOM EXPERIENCE

Well, basically, nothing much happened here. My labor was not induced so they just checked if I progressed and to my surprise, I did. My cervix was 1 cm dilated but Janna was still so active and I was not having any contractions at all. Two resident doctors interviewed me for my medical history and I was brought to my room after. 

( Note: In the whole duration of my pregnancy, I did not want my photo to be taken because I knew that I really did not look good. HAHA But since it was my last night of being pregnant, I said, WHAT THE HECK? CLICK!")

To a Best friend.

Last night was one of the funniest and craziest conversation I had with a friend ever since I can remember. We basically talked about how our lives turned out, how we used to do all things together and of course how our friendship seemed to have taken it's down fall. 

It was funny because time passed by so quickly that so many things have happened, we both went on different directions but after all these years, it turned out that we were still the same people. We were still the crazy girls, we once were. 

You see, we met when we were twelve. Well I was twelve and she was thirteen. It was our first year in high school, she became my seatmate and we just started talking about the most random things and never stopped. We became best friends ever since. We would always do things together, go on random adventures to a place we've never been to just for the heck of it, fight our battles together, we always had each other's back. We even planned to enroll in the same college but I was too lazy to process my college applications, so I ended up enrolling to a different university. 

On our high school graduation, we promised to stay in touch despite our different schools but this did not happen. Over some silly and shallow reason, we fought and just stopped talking to each other. And that's how I lost my best friend.

Take a vacation from worries.

Going a different direction. 

I was supposed to write about how I want to take a different direction and how anxious I am that it's already October and I only have a month left 'til I go back to work but I received an automated email from an app that I registered in and here's what I got: 

Take this moment to conjure up a fond memory. A time in your life when you were content and happy. Dwell on that moment for a while, let those feelings of contentment permeate your soul. Today is a good day to be content, so take a vacation from your worries.

Upon reading this, I came to a realization that, I've been thinking of the same things everyday and it just seem to make me anxious all the time. So why not give myself a break?

I have decided not to think of anything today and just enjoy the rest of the day without any worries.Yes, there may be things that are beyond of our control but I have faith that God will grace me with wisdom, just in time for when I will truly need it.

What about you? What's on your mind? Are you also willing to take a vacation from your worries today? 

xx